New Friendship?

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I feel like a fucking moron. What the fuck am I doing “flirting” with a man that I know has a woman already? Am I doing it on purpose? or am I just reaching out for SOMEONE to talk to face to face?!? It is the man I mentioned before that works at Walmart, and I was finally able to verbalize what happened with my neighbor. Today we exchanged phone numbers and he said something about taking me out sometime to get to know me…..am I falling into the trap again?!?!?! I will have to be absolutely sure to verbally tell him out right how I feel about being “the other woman” and that all I have ever seeked from a man is FRIENDSHIP ONLY. He will have to accept the fact that I have never wanted anything physical and I will tell him why when I tell him my entire story. I will tell him that anything I MIGHT ever want in the future will revolved around my past and that I have NEVER wanted to be involved in a “love triangle” so with him it will only be friendship or NOTHING. I am certainly much more prepared for all of this then I was when my last ex came along so atleast I am seeing all of these signs early on, instead of allowing someone to take advantage of me again. ESPECIALLY since the man already has a woman……
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ok….he called me during his 15 minute break and I told him what I wanted and he is fine with that kind of friendship. I told him, if he ever tried to make it more that, he would know he was crossing the line and I would fight him.
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Friendship, is all I have ever wanted, I hope that this can turn into a great friendship and nothing more. I hate cheaters, and never want to be “the other woman.” I just want to be able to have someone to trust to open up about so many things that I feel I can’t tell anyone else. I have told all of these things right here, but I wanted someone that I could talk to, face to face, get input, and just be able to hang out with, without having to worry about “ulterior motives.” That is something, it seems, every man I have ever come in contact with, has had……ulterior motives……wanting to get “something more” out of me, that I never wanted.